Blessing

Every tTHs, i have my c++ lecture subject, and before i get to the North building, i always have to go thru the admin building first where the president's list is posted/displayed. There was no chance that i didn't turn my head left to browse my eyes to t

hat list and pray to God "Lord...sana ma experience ko mapost muka ko jan." sabay ngiti habang naglalakad (prng engeng lng xD) alam ko sa sarili ko imposib

le na magka 1.00 QWA ko noh. so syempre kahit 10th place SOBRANG OK na sakin.

kaya lng naman ako nag-sisipag kase yoko ma-hinto (di ako genius..masipag lang :))..di ako nahihiyang sabihin na wala kami pambayad ng tuition fee no

h..mami ko nalang ang kasama ko bumubuo ng pangarap ko

para samin..baon nga pang araw-araw hirap na-pano pa tuit

ion fee? Hindi ako nagpapaawa sainyo. HAHA! I'm just stating facts..yung mga facs para SA AKIN. Ang mahal at laki naman kase talaga. Pero like i told

myself i want to finish my course in Mapua kase doon din n

agtapos Daddy ko...idol ko yun eh, kahit iniwan niya kami ng

mommy ko. :|

So eto na nga, kelan lang, a friend (not-so-close) pe

ro friend ko siya alam ko :)--came up to me, shook my hand and said "congrats!! naka post name mo doon sa tapat ng registrar!". I was like--"huh? na

me?" isip isip ko dun sa peer advising ule, pero bakit n

eed pa i-congratulate diba? xD so i double checked--i told mysh "saan? anu nakalagay?" she said na may photo na black and white--THAT'S IT I thought

to myself....may picture!!! nako..baka nasa list na nga ako

! pero syempre ayoko mag assume :))

After class, I dragged paolo, my bf, to the registrar(sa tapa

t nun) dragged talaga eh noh? xD and slow motion pa paglalakad ko and we were both flabbergasted! i screamed sa mind ko "ANSWERED PRA

YER!!!!!" 10 times siguro yun..i was sooooo overwhelmed because i asked the Lord to place me 10th place. But He placed me with a better number which

is 9. I kind of burst into tears...naramdaman ko kase paghih

irap ko x'D yung puyat, puyat, puyat.. But the Lord is really good--He made sure na magiging worth it ang lahat after ng downfall ko sa physics 1.

As I continue to study, work and think harder for allll that needs to be done.. I thank the Lord for everything. EVERY BLESSING, EVERY prayer answered.

Message ko lang sa mga mapuans na ubod ng yaman ang parents--Blessed kayo kase may pamilya ka na sinusuportahan lahat ng gastos mo, kase sa Mapua ka nag aaral, kase buhay ka! xD...suklian sana sila ng magandang grades or kahit non-failing grades (basta KUNG kaya)..diba? barkada, gimik, planking, pagiging adik...andyan lng yan..mas nakaka-high ang makitang proud at nakangiti/masaya ang mga magulang mo sayo dahil anak ka nila.

PRAY, it works!

God bless us O:)

till my next post ~_^.

PLANNING

I currently have 7 subjects this term. And one of them is EMG110 or learning about being a manager for the future! We had our topic 'Planning'--that there's no point in going somewhere where you still actually have no idea where that is! When professor Bio actually asked what our goals were or what we plan to do in the future--as much as i want to participate--i just don't know what i plan to do! and it's a crazy feeling REALLY.

So it's been 2 weeks (almost 3) that i've been thinking deeply of what i want to do after i finish college.

I remember when i was a little younger...i wanted to be a stewardess in Emirates (in Dubai.) and right now, i'm actually thinking of pursuing it :D I know my friends and people who know me are thinking BUT YOUR CHUBBY BUT YOUR SHORT BUT BUT BUT BUTTS :)) hey i may be chubby but i still have plans in reducing my weight (there's a right time for that you know). All i actally need is to finish a course with a Degree! and voila! i can be a stewardess :D that's PLAN A. My Plan B is designing layouts for billboards--in Dubai again. Why Dubai if you ask--it's my Home town! I grew up eating grilled halal chickens with grass as side dish, and shuwarmas cooked/made by arabs. and trust me, shuwarmas in middle East countries are waaaaaaaaaaaaaay better than shuwarmas here. :)) now talking about food?!?

Back to what i plan--I thought of doing Plan A and B at the same time! why not, right?

But the problem is..i first want to get experience getting a job that has got something to do with my course (2 years maximum maybe). I'm thinking of another problem when i get to the point where i'll be going back to Dubai...my boyfriend! yes....my boyfriend. i don't even know know if it's a problem, but somehow it is because i dont want to be far away from him--but both of us has goals and plans to be successful and all. I know he'd support me. I expect that he will at least. and I actually expect that he'll come to Dubai, not necessarily with me but after me...if you get what i mean. Hence, we'll be working in Dubai and be happppppppppppy and pursue with our plans as a couple. (isn't that wonderful? cool with career, lovelife, and in supporting our families as well) :D

And when i'm happy with my career as a stewardess or/and an artist, i'll be able to give my mom a beautiful life...she's all that i have...and my sister of course..and wawi (my dog) :)

and of course pay what i owe my friend (i love you friend. you know who you are. God bless you) P.S: she actually helped me continue my studies when i wasn't able to pay my tuition fees. she's a wonderful person really.

But for the meantime, as i continue to work and study harder for all my plans, goals, dreams, plans, goals, dreams.......

I pray to the Lord that He'll be with me thru my tough times and success, and to continue to bless me EVERY term in mapua, "a shining and shimmering--FULL SCHOLARSHIP". Trully, nothing's impossible when you're with the Lord.

God bless us :)

till my next post ^_^

a comeBACK

Hello everyone! i'm kinda back. i miss posting my insights here in my blog. i admit many things had changed. But the good news is i'm going strong studying in mapua! we all know it's not so affordable to study in such colleges to those who can't actually afford to(im one of them!)! my secret why im still here(mit) is because of my goals in life and eagerness to reach and fulfill my dreams--and hey, im almost there! and i have no problems in paying my tuition fee(it's a 0) just the misc. fee though... and that is another problem (dagdag pa baon HAHA..tiistiis nga lng tlga hbgn di pa tapos).

I may have grammatical errors now because it's been a long time since i had my last post in my blog. [BLOG--another way of practicing english thru writing--or typing rather :)] and excuse me for my errors. O:)

this post of mine is just a 'coming-back' post. I'll have my actual insight or post in my next....post (paulit-ulit?!) xD

thanks for reading this. i dont even know if this has sense or...whatever. :D

i'll be typing my next post after this ~_^

lalala~~

*sigh* It's been...9 months na halos since i last posted in my blog. I missed this. Expressing feelings thru typing, blogs and all.

Anyway, after having that 3.00 in Physics 1, infairness nakabawi ako sa Physics 2--which is a great thing and big deal sa akin kase half scholar ule, which means tuloy ang pagaaral (oyes...that's the best part of every scholarship i get) pero sympre...financial problems--who doesn't get the similiar problem? except for those who are really lucky tlga..ayun.. tatlong subjects lang nakuha ko..and it's all that we could afford. But who cares, i managed to concentrate on all the stress my majors gave me last term--which was worth it! Yun lang naman ang gusto ko...ang ma prove sa sarili ko and parent/s ko na "eto oh..may na achieve ako this term =')"

Ewan ko lang sa mga hindi kina-career ang studies nila-- pero alam mo yun..masaya, masarap sa pkiramdam na may na fulfill ka sa lahat ng efforts na binigay mo. Tama talaga mga sinasabi nila..na nasa una lang ang paghihirap..ok lang oo sige nahihirapan ako ano ba tohhh..sige buhos mo lahat (bawas stress din yun) dadating din ang tamang time na matatapos din..at pwede na magpahinga sa sembreak kuno xD

ewan ko ba. Dati tamad ako pumasok lalo na nung highschool ako. haaaay jusko kelan ba toh matatapos, pero nung naging mapuan na ako, nakakatamad minsan, mahirap-- pero masaya, di lang ako sure kung sa ibang cardinals at ibang colleges/universities/intitutes ganito din na fi-feel nila HAHA.

One thing's for sure, proud ako maging Mapuan/Malayan.

PS: Salamat sa mahusay kong professors, real friends ko, ate ko, mom, future everythings/co-explorer ko (paolo), at sympre kay Lord-- =')

Minor ka lang..bakit ka ganyan? =(

This post of mine indicates that I'm trully depress of the outcome of my recent grades in school.

OO..siguro nga wala ako naipasa na quiz. Siguro nga di ko mashado maintindihan mga lessons na itinuturo nya. pero hello? hnde nmn gnun kababa grades ko...and the fact na alam nyang may minemaintain akong grades? the point na di naman SUPER useful ang physics sa course na tntake ko? the fact na Minor subject sya--TRES?!?! O,_O
sana ginawa akong half scholar manlang para walang possibility na huminto ako diba?!?!?! HUMINTO NG DHIL SA MINOR!???! bullsh!T~!!!

you know how that feels? ay grabe!!! kung alam nyo langggg ang feeling ng ayaw huminto...kung alam nyo lng tlga ung feeling na kung anu anu at san san chumu-chorva para lang makapag aral sa magandang unibersidad!

HAI!!!!!!!!!!!! ='((

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LESSON: hnde purkit minor--PETIKS!! ayusin mo kase!!! !@#$%! WAG KANG MAKONTENTO SA paking TRES! hnde pwedeng PWEDE NA! dapat PWEDENG PWEDE! make sure na sa bawat subject na tinetake mo NAINTINDIHAN MO--hnde ung MAY NAINTINDIHAN KA LANG!!!


arggggggggghhh!!!



(P.S: hindi ako petiks sa PHYSICS..sadyang mahirap lang syang intindihin!!!)
Lee.

February

Single? *apir!

damayan ko kau..hmm not sure kung pang ilan ko na feb na wala akong valentine..pero last year ATA meron..lol..OMG..i dont remember? how sad..pero honestly...sa dmi n ng valentines n nagdaan..isng tao lng naaalala ko n nagprmdm ng kung anu meron ang Feb14....(hang cheeesyy..LOL)

parang knina lng may nag tapat ah? haha..friend..ur still a friend =)

so aun...nalaman n ng prof ko kung sino crush ko O_O and thats...i dnt know..nkakakaba baka maibulgar nya..hahaha enyweiz..i do trust him (pramis) haha

tsaka nako mag kwento...tym nako eh...(sayang..) haha

lots of <3,
Lee

What to do?

haaaaaaaiiii grabe...watta life

have myself work nytshifts while studying?
or just STUDY?

haaay ang gulo....anu kaya ggwin ko sa buhay ko? ano b dpt gawin ng mga takot huminto at hilig mag aral ng mag aral? pag hndi ako nag work..panu pag nawala skolarship? (OH NOOOOOOO!!! God won't let that happen x_x) pnu pag mamomoblema nnmn?!?!?!? hay ta3..

dame nag tanong "bkt kase mapua? why not study in an affordable school?"

hellllloooooooo...sa resume mo Mapua sabay naging STI? (.no ofens sa sti pero sila ang alam ko nag oofer ng 2yr cors na multimedia arts) haha...ang weird no? the thing is THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO PURSUE..kelangan b tlg magpa epekto sa HINDRANCES or EPAL sa gusto o pangarap mo? (grrrrrrrr)

"dame mo nmn relatives..may relatives ka sa AMERICA!"
oh really? panu kung ang totoo is THEY HATE ME for something na wala akong kinalaman. POINT? hnde nila tanggap kung ANO at SINO ako.

"bigatin ung mga nasa DUBAI ah..."
...O_O no comment. some of them wants me to STOP and WORK WORK WORK.

"may TATAY ka db?"
ROFL! asa....he's retired. FACT? he left us.

"ung kapatid mong SECRETARY ni MAYOR?"
sorry....she is against ME. HALF sisters lng kase kme.
ILLEGAL DAUGHTER of HER FATHER? yes.

alam mo ung dadating sa point na....u r left all ALONE..then u get to REFLECT kung sino ka sa world na toh..suddenly na realize mo na..wow..dami ko pala kapatid...wow...laki pala ng pamilya nmin....

unfortunately...my reflection's conclusion? is just ME and my MOM--who trully supports me. Fortunately, God gave me SOME friends and mentors who gives advices, supports, helps, comforts, etc.

i have no idea kung anu mgging conclusion ng post kong toh.. i guess nag labas lng ako ng di mgndang katotohanan..LOL

anyway...the Question still remains..

"WHAT TO DO?"


xoxo,
Lee