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Blessing

2011-08-26T05:49:00.000-07:00

Every tTHs, i have my c++ lecture subject, and before i get to the North building, i always have to go thru the admin building first where the president's list is posted/displayed. There was no chance that i didn't turn my head left to browse my eyes to t

hat list and pray to God "Lord...sana ma experience ko mapost muka ko jan." sabay ngiti habang naglalakad (prng engeng lng xD) alam ko sa sarili ko imposib

le na magka 1.00 QWA ko noh. so syempre kahit 10th place SOBRANG OK na sakin.

kaya lng naman ako nag-sisipag kase yoko ma-hinto (di ako genius..masipag lang :))..di ako nahihiyang sabihin na wala kami pambayad ng tuition fee no

h..mami ko nalang ang kasama ko bumubuo ng pangarap ko

para samin..baon nga pang araw-araw hirap na-pano pa tuit

ion fee? Hindi ako nagpapaawa sainyo. HAHA! I'm just stating facts..yung mga facs para SA AKIN. Ang mahal at laki naman kase talaga. Pero like i told

myself i want to finish my course in Mapua kase doon din n

agtapos Daddy ko...idol ko yun eh, kahit iniwan niya kami ng

mommy ko. :|

So eto na nga, kelan lang, a friend (not-so-close) pe

ro friend ko siya alam ko :)--came up to me, shook my hand and said "congrats!! naka post name mo doon sa tapat ng registrar!". I was like--"huh? na

me?" isip isip ko dun sa peer advising ule, pero bakit n

eed pa i-congratulate diba? xD so i double checked--i told mysh "saan? anu nakalagay?" she said na may photo na black and white--THAT'S IT I thought

to myself....may picture!!! nako..baka nasa list na nga ako

! pero syempre ayoko mag assume :))

After class, I dragged paolo, my bf, to the registrar(sa tapa

t nun) dragged talaga eh noh? xD and slow motion pa paglalakad ko and we were both flabbergasted! i screamed sa mind ko "ANSWERED PRA

YER!!!!!" 10 times siguro yun..i was sooooo overwhelmed because i asked the Lord to place me 10th place. But He placed me with a better number which

is 9. I kind of burst into tears...naramdaman ko kase paghih

irap ko x'D yung puyat, puyat, puyat.. But the Lord is really good--He made sure na magiging worth it ang lahat after ng downfall ko sa physics 1.

As I continue to study, work and think harder for allll that needs to be done.. I thank the Lord for everything. EVERY BLESSING, EVERY prayer answered.

Message ko lang sa mga mapuans na ubod ng yaman ang parents--Blessed kayo kase may pamilya ka na sinusuportahan lahat ng gastos mo, kase sa Mapua ka nag aaral, kase buhay ka! xD...suklian sana sila ng magandang grades or kahit non-failing grades (basta KUNG kaya)..diba? barkada, gimik, planking, pagiging adik...andyan lng yan..mas nakaka-high ang makitang proud at nakangiti/masaya ang mga magulang mo sayo dahil anak ka nila.

PRAY, it works!

God bless us O:)

till my next post ~_^.

PLANNING

2011-08-25T02:04:00.000-07:00

I currently have 7 subjects this term. And one of them is EMG110 or learning about being a manager for the future! We had our topic 'Planning'--that there's no point in going somewhere where you still actually have no idea where that is! When professor Bio actually asked what our goals were or what we plan to do in the future--as much as i want to participate--i just don't know what i plan to do! and it's a crazy feeling REALLY.

So it's been 2 weeks (almost 3) that i've been thinking deeply of what i want to do after i finish college.

I remember when i was a little younger...i wanted to be a stewardess in Emirates (in Dubai.) and right now, i'm actually thinking of pursuing it :D I know my friends and people who know me are thinking BUT YOUR CHUBBY BUT YOUR SHORT BUT BUT BUT BUTTS :)) hey i may be chubby but i still have plans in reducing my weight (there's a right time for that you know). All i actally need is to finish a course with a Degree! and voila! i can be a stewardess :D that's PLAN A. My Plan B is designing layouts for billboards--in Dubai again. Why Dubai if you ask--it's my Home town! I grew up eating grilled halal chickens with grass as side dish, and shuwarmas cooked/made by arabs. and trust me, shuwarmas in middle East countries are waaaaaaaaaaaaaay better than shuwarmas here. :)) now talking about food?!?

Back to what i plan--I thought of doing Plan A and B at the same time! why not, right?

But the problem is..i first want to get experience getting a job that has got something to do with my course (2 years maximum maybe). I'm thinking of another problem when i get to the point where i'll be going back to Dubai...my boyfriend! yes....my boyfriend. i don't even know know if it's a problem, but somehow it is because i dont want to be far away from him--but both of us has goals and plans to be successful and all. I know he'd support me. I expect that he will at least. and I actually expect that he'll come to Dubai, not necessarily with me but after me...if you get what i mean. Hence, we'll be working in Dubai and be happppppppppppy and pursue with our plans as a couple. (isn't that wonderful? cool with career, lovelife, and in supporting our families as well) :D

And when i'm happy with my career as a stewardess or/and an artist, i'll be able to give my mom a beautiful life...she's all that i have...and my sister of course..and wawi (my dog) :)

and of course pay what i owe my friend (i love you friend. you know who you are. God bless you) P.S: she actually helped me continue my studies when i wasn't able to pay my tuition fees. she's a wonderful person really.

But for the meantime, as i continue to work and study harder for all my plans, goals, dreams, plans, goals, dreams.......

I pray to the Lord that He'll be with me thru my tough times and success, and to continue to bless me EVERY term in mapua, "a shining and shimmering--FULL SCHOLARSHIP". Trully, nothing's impossible when you're with the Lord.

God bless us :)

till my next post ^_^

a comeBACK

2011-08-25T01:07:00.001-07:00

Hello everyone! i'm kinda back. i miss posting my insights here in my blog. i admit many things had changed. But the good news is i'm going strong studying in mapua! we all know it's not so affordable to study in such colleges to those who can't actually afford to(im one of them!)! my secret why im still here(mit) is because of my goals in life and eagerness to reach and fulfill my dreams--and hey, im almost there! and i have no problems in paying my tuition fee(it's a 0) just the misc. fee though... and that is another problem (dagdag pa baon HAHA..tiistiis nga lng tlga hbgn di pa tapos).

I may have grammatical errors now because it's been a long time since i had my last post in my blog. [BLOG--another way of practicing english thru writing--or typing rather :)] and excuse me for my errors. O:)

this post of mine is just a 'coming-back' post. I'll have my actual insight or post in my next....post (paulit-ulit?!) xD

thanks for reading this. i dont even know if this has sense or...whatever. :D

i'll be typing my next post after this ~_^

lalala~~

2010-12-30T01:09:00.000-08:00

*sigh* It's been...9 months na halos since i last posted in my blog. I missed this. Expressing feelings thru typing, blogs and all.

Anyway, after having that 3.00 in Physics 1, infairness nakabawi ako sa Physics 2--which is a great thing and big deal sa akin kase half scholar ule, which means tuloy ang pagaaral (oyes...that's the best part of every scholarship i get) pero sympre...financial problems--who doesn't get the similiar problem? except for those who are really lucky tlga..ayun.. tatlong subjects lang nakuha ko..and it's all that we could afford. But who cares, i managed to concentrate on all the stress my majors gave me last term--which was worth it! Yun lang naman ang gusto ko...ang ma prove sa sarili ko and parent/s ko na "eto oh..may na achieve ako this term =')"

Ewan ko lang sa mga hindi kina-career ang studies nila-- pero alam mo yun..masaya, masarap sa pkiramdam na may na fulfill ka sa lahat ng efforts na binigay mo. Tama talaga mga sinasabi nila..na nasa una lang ang paghihirap..ok lang oo sige nahihirapan ako ano ba tohhh..sige buhos mo lahat (bawas stress din yun) dadating din ang tamang time na matatapos din..at pwede na magpahinga sa sembreak kuno xD

ewan ko ba. Dati tamad ako pumasok lalo na nung highschool ako. haaaay jusko kelan ba toh matatapos, pero nung naging mapuan na ako, nakakatamad minsan, mahirap-- pero masaya, di lang ako sure kung sa ibang cardinals at ibang colleges/universities/intitutes ganito din na fi-feel nila HAHA.

One thing's for sure, proud ako maging Mapuan/Malayan.

PS: Salamat sa mahusay kong professors, real friends ko, ate ko, mom, future everythings/co-explorer ko (paolo), at sympre kay Lord-- =')

Minor ka lang..bakit ka ganyan? =(

2010-03-30T19:52:00.000-07:00

This post of mine indicates that I'm trully depress of the outcome of my recent grades in school.

OO..siguro nga wala ako naipasa na quiz. Siguro nga di ko mashado maintindihan mga lessons na itinuturo nya. pero hello? hnde nmn gnun kababa grades ko...and the fact na alam nyang may minemaintain akong grades? the point na di naman SUPER useful ang physics sa course na tntake ko? the fact na Minor subject sya--TRES?!?! O,_O
sana ginawa akong half scholar manlang para walang possibility na huminto ako diba?!?!?! HUMINTO NG DHIL SA MINOR!???! bullsh!T~!!!

you know how that feels? ay grabe!!! kung alam nyo langggg ang feeling ng ayaw huminto...kung alam nyo lng tlga ung feeling na kung anu anu at san san chumu-chorva para lang makapag aral sa magandang unibersidad!

HAI!!!!!!!!!!!! ='((

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LESSON: hnde purkit minor--PETIKS!! ayusin mo kase!!! !@#$%! WAG KANG MAKONTENTO SA paking TRES! hnde pwedeng PWEDE NA! dapat PWEDENG PWEDE! make sure na sa bawat subject na tinetake mo NAINTINDIHAN MO--hnde ung MAY NAINTINDIHAN KA LANG!!!

arggggggggghhh!!!

(P.S: hindi ako petiks sa PHYSICS..sadyang mahirap lang syang intindihin!!!)
Lee.

February

2010-02-01T09:28:00.000-08:00

Single? *apir!

damayan ko kau..hmm not sure kung pang ilan ko na feb na wala akong valentine..pero last year ATA meron..lol..OMG..i dont remember? how sad..pero honestly...sa dmi n ng valentines n nagdaan..isng tao lng naaalala ko n nagprmdm ng kung anu meron ang Feb14....(hang cheeesyy..LOL)

parang knina lng may nag tapat ah? haha..friend..ur still a friend =)

so aun...nalaman n ng prof ko kung sino crush ko O_O and thats...i dnt know..nkakakaba baka maibulgar nya..hahaha enyweiz..i do trust him (pramis) haha

tsaka nako mag kwento...tym nako eh...(sayang..) haha

lots of <3,
Lee

What to do?

2010-01-14T07:53:00.000-08:00

haaaaaaaiiii grabe...watta life

have myself work nytshifts while studying?
or just STUDY?

haaay ang gulo....anu kaya ggwin ko sa buhay ko? ano b dpt gawin ng mga takot huminto at hilig mag aral ng mag aral? pag hndi ako nag work..panu pag nawala skolarship? (OH NOOOOOOO!!! God won't let that happen x_x) pnu pag mamomoblema nnmn?!?!?!? hay ta3..

dame nag tanong "bkt kase mapua? why not study in an affordable school?"

hellllloooooooo...sa resume mo Mapua sabay naging STI? (.no ofens sa sti pero sila ang alam ko nag oofer ng 2yr cors na multimedia arts) haha...ang weird no? the thing is THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO PURSUE..kelangan b tlg magpa epekto sa HINDRANCES or EPAL sa gusto o pangarap mo? (grrrrrrrr)

"dame mo nmn relatives..may relatives ka sa AMERICA!"
oh really? panu kung ang totoo is THEY HATE ME for something na wala akong kinalaman. POINT? hnde nila tanggap kung ANO at SINO ako.

"bigatin ung mga nasa DUBAI ah..."
...O_O no comment. some of them wants me to STOP and WORK WORK WORK.

"may TATAY ka db?"
ROFL! asa....he's retired. FACT? he left us.

"ung kapatid mong SECRETARY ni MAYOR?"
sorry....she is against ME. HALF sisters lng kase kme.
ILLEGAL DAUGHTER of HER FATHER? yes.

alam mo ung dadating sa point na....u r left all ALONE..then u get to REFLECT kung sino ka sa world na toh..suddenly na realize mo na..wow..dami ko pala kapatid...wow...laki pala ng pamilya nmin....

unfortunately...my reflection's conclusion? is just ME and my MOM--who trully supports me. Fortunately, God gave me SOME friends and mentors who gives advices, supports, helps, comforts, etc.

i have no idea kung anu mgging conclusion ng post kong toh.. i guess nag labas lng ako ng di mgndang katotohanan..LOL

anyway...the Question still remains..

"WHAT TO DO?"

xoxo,
Lee

Botante na =D

2009-12-28T05:52:00.000-08:00

9am (early in the morning!) my cousin (karen) and I prepared for our schedule in comelec for registration. Good thing extended ung registration :D

Unfortunately, when we got there sa calumpit (municipyo ng bulacan) grabe haba ng pilaaa (grrr...) tpos ung nag guide samin dun iniwan pa kami ng couz ko kase may susunduin pa sya.. so aun..Sadly, we have to register the easy way xD Ung guide nmin may pakana, he saved 2 seats for us (nag go with the flow nlng kami...besides ang init ng weather!)

Weird events were, there came a time i felt i was quite malas that day... 1st, i didnt get to go inside the main room for it was full na! 2nd, nung turn ko na magpa take ng pic--biglang naiihi ung nag ttake ng picture (FtW??!) haha..super tawa insan ko...(napansin din nya ung mga pagkakataon na un) Super nakakawindang pa--is while waiting for our friend who brought us there, karen and i sat near the super main door (ung pinaka malaki) kase walang matinong maupuan dun so NO CHOICE kmi to sit sa medyo ground (haha)..the nakakawindang part was when an old guy (not super old) na may pwesto or position sa loob ng comelec was about to get IN the huge building--my cousin noticed him staring at me. (wala ako sa sarili ko madalas kaya I'm NOT aware of wats happening tlg)..aun ..the man gave me a BIG smile (i did smiled back kase he seemd to be friendly nmn for me and he looks rich LOL) but before he went inside, he came back and gave me a head rub (or watever u call it--ung parang ginagawa ng amo sa aso pag ngagawa nya ung tricks perfectly) and said "cute na cute ah".

Nagkatitigan kami ng couz ko kase we were both shock of how the man acted and my cousin in the end burst out laughing! she was like "hahaha grabe..cute na cute sayo haha" i was like "graaabbbeee...anu un..para akong tuta ah" hahaha

super crazy tlg..nkakatuwa nkakatawa na nakakainis..gRRrawRR!! haha

aun...whole day, ok nmn...kht mainit..nakakatuwa...atleast karen and i are registered voters na..sana we'd make the right choice :D

xoxo,
LEE

so early in the morning..xD

2009-12-20T11:11:00.000-08:00

woke up at around 1:40am...dont wanna sleep pa so eto..facebook muna wyl chting w/kirbs...

so glad na last day of classes na kannina sa nstp..but then..dami pdin na plates na ggwn..3 more pending plates.. 1 make up plate, 1 20x15 final plate and a study for mas' exhibit on Feb... wat more? holding a pencil during the holidays will still be doing something for a deadline. Good thing our trigo finals and english oral defens are now over...only 2 subjs left for next year resume of classes. Still clueless with the date our classes will start again (i still dont wanna know) haha xD

nakakagutom mag puyat..mag yayakult nlng ako..LOL xD i wanna go out kaso dami na tambay outside..may mga nag vivideo oke pa sa labas..xDDD watta place....

Sad part? my grandma(dady syd) just died..yesterday...and i dont know how to get there sa burol..or should i? baka awayin lng ako ng legal wife...sa bagay..hu cares...my grandma died..the mean lady shud be thankful na i didnt wish it was her nlng..LOL (meaniiee!) xD sorry dun haha xD so..should i? gawd..ang hirap db?

btw that lola of mine is the lola hu cooks exotic food (often) ..kaya nung bata ako and everytym i visit her..i dont eat much...kase i knew it then for sure na may SOMETHING dun sa kakainin ko nakakaiba..haha xD but i love her..she's cool....90+ na sya (mahaba buhay dun sa dad syd ko) oh well...kung sakin nmn..i dont think i'll live as long as my lola had stayed awake..(anu daW?) haha.. liit kase ng tenga ko...sabi kase nila pag malaki tenga mhba buhai..haha!! naniwala nmn ako...xDDD

haix...tama na toh for today... next tym ult..wee...slmt sa mga matyagang nagbabasa sa insyts ko =)

Merry Xmas! ..
xoxo, Lee

back again?

2009-12-13T06:43:00.000-08:00

na miss ko blog ko...haiii dami daming bago,,,,sorry peEps super busy lng tlga sa school...anyweiz im currently preparing for our thesis defense tomorw...kinakabahan ako ngaun plng...sana kayanin nming buong grupo...i aim for a high score in our ENGLish subj since un ang pinaka mababa kong grade last sem...tsktsk...
soon ill be updating my friendster ndn =)

c u guys...

Martyr-ness?

2009-05-16T06:19:00.000-07:00

The word of the day/week/month/year -- "Martyr" (martir?)

My mum once told me i was being one. What does the word martyr mean anyway (filipino /slang version)? I often hear that word from bitter people..LOL the question is "am i one of 'em?".

I asked my mum, "anu ba meaning nun..", she answered "matiisin..uhmmm...tanga for short."

Lee: O_O

owwwwkei..i never bothered to search for the meaning of martyrness, but after what THE mother told HER daughter? GAWD! wouldn't u be bothered??? it's like "gawd..kakahiya...momi ko pa nag sabi skn nun >_<"

Is it THAT bad to be set aside by someone you admire so much for YEARS in such a SHORT time?

I guess this is something for me to thing about..

Unfortunately for those who finds martyrness pathetic...

,,,nothing makes me think of backing out. >_<

Love life status

2009-05-04T04:18:00.001-07:00

Huwaaat? Wala….im stupid and just a nobody..

Wag na kau….emo ako ngayon =’]

Na miss ko blog ko T_T

Well…IM BACK :'D

COLLEGE (hmmm)

2009-05-04T04:16:00.000-07:00

Weee…college na…anu kayang meron dun? Haha xD

First let me give you a short info of what im taking.

I’m Loralie B. Sevilla (oo na mas maganda apilido ko T_T) Just call me Lee =) I’ll be studying in Mapua Institute of Technology which is located in Intramuros (bwhahaha) –taking up MAS (hnde mascom) much known as Multimedia Arts and Science (gawd..i love the feeling when I say the full form of it xD) o db sosyal xD

Yup..i’ll be taking up MAS..many of my friends thought na I.T kukunin ko, pero hnde eh..masaklap out of 4 schools na ine-examan ko AMA at UE(scholarship pa) lang ako pumasa ng I.T. unfortunately, I didn’t pass that course in UST and MAPUA (huhu saklap)..eh ung di ko pinasahan ung mga gsto ko talagang school T_T so ayun..baka hnde talaga para sakin yung I.T, so since I’m kinda creative (haha) and artistic (whew lakas ng loob) I took MAS! THE END haha

Grabe, balak pa nga ako pag dorm-in…pero ayaw ko...i don’t like curfews and maluwag nmn sched ko kahit MADUGO

My sched is like EVERDAY Monday to Sunday..12-4:30pm and every Tuesday 9am to 4:30 (waaaaaaaaaaa) bahala na haha! I’m praying nag guide ako ni Lord..syempre…Chance ko narin siguro pumayat kaka commute (bigtym LOL) haha! Sana ayus mgging mates ko..sana possible padin pangongopya (kidding =D)

Goodluck sakin at sa lahat ng freshies! Sana naintindihan nyo insight ko (lol)

HIGHSCHOOL LIFE---the end.

2009-05-04T04:13:00.000-07:00

Yes! Tapos na ang highschool…tpos na sandamakmak na movie making, projects, skits, layout works, recitation, buttoned sleeves, CAT, at napakadaming quizzes at formulas na dapat kabisado talaga (haha) Pero syempre…isa lng nmn ata di natatapos sa HS eh…ung FRIENDSHIP na nabuo thru thick and thin…db? Pati nga mga teachers uber close eh! Saya noh?

Pero lahat ng paghihirap n yun..may kasunod pa…MAS MAHIRAP hahaha xD

Ang college life…naku po…kung alam nyo lng..ang dami kong tanong na college friends ko lang mkakasagot..isa na dun ang 3-HOUR P.E haha xD I was thinking na sa MAPUA lang ang may 3-HOUR P.E class…ganun pla talaga pag college na…mas mahaba oras pero infairness ah…hawak nmn raw ang time.

Ayun nga lang…grabe talaga yung sched ko. Kwento ko mamaya..haha xD

Haix talaga…dami ko mamimiss sa HS. Pagiging pasaway khit konti..pag tambay sa COMP LAB pag gagawa ng layout para sa school magazine, JS proms, pagiging member ng MILITARY POLICE, pag cucutting (JOWK) haha di ko Gawain un =p

Sabi nila mas masaya raw talaga ang HS..welllll…tingin ko nmn tlgng gnun..masakit at masaklap lng pag nakalimutan ka ng classmates mo T_T (huhu..) Pero di yan..may naiwan naman akong ngiti at trademark sakanila eh..pagiging MULTI COLORED EYE DUBAIAN haha xD

MSG TO IV HUMILITY/BATCH 08-09 ST.MARY’S COLLEGE OF MEYCAUAYAN

>>> SEE YOU AT THE CROSSROADS! =)

"hey...it's daddy." March 18

2009-03-18T17:54:00.000-07:00

Those words...huge tears rolled down my cheeks and answered "Hey...hi DAD" ...

speechless
motionless

that time..holding the phone...i was filled with joy and sorrow. Ironic though, joy coz hey! I have a dad =) Sorrow..for it was only a telephone conversation.

It was about 7pm..THAT PHONE NUMBER appeared in my cp..I wasnt familiar with the number ..i didn't expect a call from him AFTER 4 YEARS (almost) haaaix... katabi ko pa mom ko nun..she cried with me. So aun..we were talking and telling short stories. I asked him if he could come on my GRADUATION DAY, all he said was "titignan ko..." So ok..i won't expect. anyway he would go if he's free.

What made me sad was, he was about to go home (to his place of course). He said bye. I said "bye.." sabay *sigh* I got numb. I didn't get to tell him how much i missed him. basta binaba ko nlng ung phone. I sent him a message though..sana nabasa nya un.

I'm not sure if im ready to see him. Feeling ko, maninibago ako..mahihiya..weird.

I used to hate him for leaving us (my mum and I). But now, I still love him I still miss him I still worry about him...and i didn't even get to tell him those words, "I love you dad..." ='(

something to think about...

2009-03-18T17:24:00.000-07:00

I was browsing thru all the literaries that was sent to us by our EIC here in our school. Im one of our school's magazine layout artist...i happened to see and read this LITERARY written by a Marian codename FALLENSAINT.

Here's the literary...try and read it somehow touched me.

PS: a GUY wrote this literary..so HELLO to the guys out there. (haha)

BLANK NIGHT SKY
Fallensaint

I’ve lost track of time while staring at this blank night sky for hours. Then suddenly, a wave of thought occurred in me. “What the hell is wrong with me? I can’t see clearly!” Everything went blurred. I closed my eyes and I felt a drop of liquid in my hands. I opened my eyes to see if it’s raining. It isn’t. “God. Am I really this stupid? Not even realizing that I’m already crying over spilled milk…”

If I haven’t done these crazy things to her, I will not be spending my night like this. If I haven’t been the most stupid and greediest person alive, I will not be spending my night like this. If I only shut my mouth before it released unfathomable words, I will not be spending my night like this. If I could just lover her like the way she loves me, she will not be spending a worse night than this.

When will my stupidity ever end? Is there anything that I’ve done right? Or more than that, is there anything left for me to do it right? I keep on telling her that I’m sorry for all the things I’ve done. I know that it is not even good enough to be called as “the right thing”, but it’s the most of what I can do. I want her to be better. I want her to heal. I want her to find the remedy for the sickness I’ve cost her. ‘Cause it’s piercing my heart to see that she’s crying and it breaks my heart completely when I see her crying because of me. I don’t want to see her that way. But I can’t even comfort her. ‘Cause if I do, I will just make the fire bigger. So that’s it. That’s the only thing I can do. To want and hope that someday, she’ll be as good as her former self. To hope that someday, she’ll find a better man. Someone who’ll never make her cry and love her unlike what I did. Though I’m not sure I want that to happen. Still, I hope it will. Because that’s the only way left in this. For her to forget me and be happy. I can’t stand hurting her again. I can’t.

Every sleepless night that passes my life, I’m wishing that I can take away all things back. I’m wishing that a magic rewind button exists right in front of me and I’ll gladly push it. ‘Cause I don’t want to lose her. All my memories with her are priceless. I want to add more happy memories with her. So why did I let her go if I love her? I’m not the right man for her. She deserves someone better and since the world begun, I’m a loser. That’s why I can’t do anything but to stare at this blank night sky for hours.

Nice noh? I wasn't aware that there are GUYS who realizes their fault/s. It's a good thing this guy tries to cope up and express his insights and feelings thru writing. Well...I just hope when the layout artists staff (with me of course =) ) finishes this EDITING thingy---the girl would come to know how this guy loves/loved her. =)

Something to think about.

saturday night...?

2009-03-09T22:46:00.000-07:00

oh gawd...its been a month or two already since i lost my internet connection = ( i miss writing about different events and my thoughts, opinions, etc.

so..guys..zup? i missed you *hugs

Last Saturday, we had our CAT evaluation sa school...MP Girls ako...so aun..we we're the only sp. platoon there who got a perfect score! (good for us...MP Boys werent sabay sabay....haha!) so aun...supposedly 5pm out nmin sa school...O.T kami hangang 6pm so UNFORTUNATELY i didn't get to go to AUDI's EVENT SEASON 2...T_T *cries

oh well...so i just went to my club's (AUDI BABIES) venue...which was in novaliches. overnyt un but i didnt get to sleep much...which sucked...haha! good thing -B-carwash aka justin was there..and he definitely served as my pillow that day! haha xD (panu kase...puno sa loob ng house kaya i preferred to take a nap nalang). That day was just OKAY..or so-so....i didn't have much fun though there werent much activities. I did missed alot of my clubmates and other audistas who werent there in the venue..CLOUD9, SAKURA, FREAKZ, and alot of OTHER FORUMERS.

My bad i didn't get to meet them T_T

Looking on the brighter side...there's still DOMINATION 3....definitely i'll be there..

so see you guys! =)

JS Promenade

2009-02-22T19:24:00.000-08:00

hello guys!! its been a long tym..=)
enyweiz..last saturday Feb 21 Saturday 5pm - 5am we had our JS prom!
and yea...i danced...alot...that's why my feet are now in pain! due to the 3inch heelxxx.....*ouch X_X

first dance was Kim Alcantara
Last dance was Joshua Rosales.....

(sadly..un lng naalala ko...middle dance..uhmm..uso pb un?? i have no idea! haha) 3rd year Js was more special...but this year was great too...i had a good makeup ...they called me jana (Fear factor Phil participante) xD and thats weird...asa nmn ako..hahaha xD naka dress lng ako this year since last year i wore a gown =)

oh weelllll...all in all..i had a great time...

this week i'll get busy with my requirements in school....(lapit na graduation)

hello to hagard days!!! =)

Goodluck sakin! xD

Godbless guys =)

Be aware...

2009-02-10T19:09:00.000-08:00

This person was hired as a house helper and sometimes he helps in the store we own here in our place. One morning he was no where to be found...he ran away with all the money in the store (personal family money also included) and took 4 units or cellphones with him which were all fully loaded since it is being used for e-loads, autoloads, etc. We also found out thru friends that "BILLY" has been using the NUMBERS of those phones and ask people to send him 1000 worth of load--which is obviously a SPAM. We reported him to the authorities already.

Hope this will serve as warning to all and if in case you know this person or if you happen to see this guy, kindly inform us (Lira Sevilla or Lily Sevilla) through E-MAIL

lilylira_22@yahoo.com

Godbless!

HACKED..again.

2009-01-05T04:13:00.000-08:00

pak tlga...lagi nlng..
so jobless!
anu meron sakin at insecure ka hah...kakatuwa ka...GRABE!

Info: I always leave my FS account loged in here sa personal laptop nmn.. i found out na hacked na dahil iba na email nya pagtingin ko..buti di ko pa na ssign out..so binura ko lahat ng images dun pati private pics. IM BACK TO ZERO...

cold_47@rock.com changed into yummY@juju.com
and the password has been changed too sympre..amf!!!!!!

gonna make another account soon..

@hacker
maglason kana...>=(

-Lee

2008

2008-12-31T09:01:00.000-08:00

How's 2008?

hmmm..Things that happend to me in year 2008 are quite well...TIRING though...sumakto sigurong grduating..so i have too many tasks to do...i had less hours of sleep than usual.. I've been really patient (reasons are stated in other entries). I think I had..like...5 amfufu relationships with 5 different amfufu guys of course. *ROFL! But i already learned my lesson which is "WAIT SOME MORE" ohhh GOOD FOR ME! lol *thinks---how long? We're ALMOST there..i think.? O_o

STUDIES STUDIES~~so far so good! average naglalaro 90.25 and above..Wishing this LAST FOURTH Quarter i'll get an ave of 91..para astig =) LOL xD

FRIENDS PALS BUDDIES~~they're all good. i didn't get to fight with anyone...except ONLINE haha! but i handled 'em goooood. bati na kami haha xD

LOVE BOYS PAGIBIG~~aun..honestly madame nag tatampo sakin na guys...snob daw ako O_O hnde nmn...busy lng xD...sa dami nun (wooo kafal ko) ...isa lang mahal ko =) *wee kileg

FAMILY PAMILYA~~well...my mom and I had a couple of MUs lol xD but syempre...the day won't end without her calling me "Lee............." ...except nlng kung galit talaga.. she'd scream "Loralie Buenconcejo Sevillllllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!" *hahaha! still..i love her.

GOD LOVE GOD is LOVE~~I didn't get to go to Church often...due to hindrances..*AMF!!! but of course...I still know Him...I miss my bands though...singing for Him...haiii..my bandmates are scatterd na...our drummer went to China na..huhu *sob!

FRIENDS KLASMEYTS~~they're all MUs (Mukang Unggoy) *haha! yea..had some drinks with them...revealed ALOT...shared a part of me...after grad..ohhh gawd...I'll miss them BIG TYM.

ONLINE LYF~~lovin' it =)....tiring though..*Arggg

POSERs~~ang husay niyo!!! (YEa....RIGHT.) *taas kilay I don't know where these people get the idea of claiming that they're me...i mean they could pretend they're Katrina halili..Shaina Magdayao..Maja Salvador..ETC. but LIRA SEVILLA??? oh..give me break~*ROFL!

READERS~~thank you for reading =) ummuah!

Happy new year guys..wishing this year of the Ox 09 will be exciting =) SPLEndID! and may we all feel mooooooooooooorrrreeeeee LOVE! =)

GodBless~

long time no ****...

2008-12-31T08:50:00.000-08:00

So ..."yea" I've been busy for a while... many events did happened... Met new friends... had A new..uhmmm "yea" yet failed [lol]. One stayed strong (i think)..kahit medyo malabo "go lang!" mahal mo eh *giggles*.

So LEE! hows things? WEIRD things happening...not the black hole or something.. it's this freakin love you keep searchin..yet ang hirap makita *argggg...diba sabi nila MAHIRAP MAG HANAP NG WALA...oh well....baka nga WALA...lol

oh well..let me JUST post another one ...xD

unwell =(

2008-12-05T06:56:00.000-08:00

gawd..i feel so NOT good...itx as if i havnt got ENOUGH sleep for a week...i think im gonna be sick! T_T add mo pa ung nararamdaman ko ngaun..i just dont feel so good..its as if i want something or someone...but i just couldnt FEEL it..i dont know..i feel like BURSTING already...

it's JUST ...SO.........uncomfortable feeling so uneasy..

i want comfort...='(

sigh

2008-11-27T16:49:00.000-08:00

Seriously..I'm feelin' weird today...these days actually I feel alone...oh crap! I don't know how to explain it..lol xD but enyweiz...yea..i think I'm 5 months single na? (not so sure though..) but it still makes me feel alone..probably because of I don't have someone special to focus at...I'm not just so sure...(I hope they're not reading this) kase wala pakong gusto sa mga sumusuyo sakin rather those who are willing to love and take care of me..It's weird..

I'm waiting..I could feel---I could actually sense that he's NEAR..i could sense that i already know him...it's WEIRD. Honestly, I'm liking someONE...though i think he won't like me...T_T

once again...IT'S WEIRD...everytime I think of it..It just makes me feel sad =(

I wonder kailan ko masasabing...

"yea..He's HIM...my him...=')"

(wooo drama haha xD)

28/11/08

2008-11-27T16:40:00.000-08:00

Today is our Recognition Day! I'm not going to be recognize though..xD but I'm happy with the grade I got this quarter...ave 90.82 rank 25..ain't so bad eh? Besides I'm in the star/cream/top section so I don't expect much..especially sa rankings...naku..ang tataas kaya nila haha!

sa mga classmates ko...Congratz!

PS: Madel and Maan (kambal) thanks sa libre! ahaha xD

a long day...

2008-11-08T12:35:00.000-08:00

gawd...i slept at past 11 or 12...woke up at 2:30...and now im doing my homework...coz we'll be having our retreat this week...So let me share MY DAY Nov.8 with you guys..

Woke up at 8.. 1pm i went to SM Sanlazaro to pay for my uniform in AUDITION BABIES and i got to meet other clubmates! <3 who are fun to be with...(i had fun...there were moments that made me speechless and think for a while) ahaha! xD

Message to Babies > i love you guys..^_^

To continue...i was on my way to my bes' party...it was olredy 7...(gawd) i waited for like 30 mins coz the lrt's really full with men..hahahah! so there we go...*whoooosh! i was really in a hurry...coz i don't want to arrive at my bes' with just ME in her recreation room..lol

Went to monumento..to meycauayan..to SM Marilao..to Muzon (Villaluz) bwhahaha...i was there and gave her my gift (a pig in a cage...i named the pig Lee..well originally it was GRAZEE...but i chnged it! hahaha) so aun..masaya...my other classmates were drunk...when i arrived they were like fooling me that they'll go home and leave me since it was olredy 10pm when i arrived...ahhaha!

After a few hours..we went home with a balloon...lol! oh btw my bes' 16...^^
we were laffing our heds off while going home...bwhahah..(reason why im still laughing : WHAT HAPPEND WAS STILL ON MY MIND!!) ahhaha AFTER SHOCK!
so overall...it was worth it...really...i had fun...they had fun..WE HAD FUN!

enjoy life..^^

P.S ---I LOVE YOU BES...^^ <3

couple of months vacant..

2008-10-28T02:21:00.000-07:00

vacant = single

oh well...i didn't knw i cud manage myself this long...asked y i stayed single for a couple of months..and still loveless from A special someone? *whispers "coz i dont want IT to happen AGAIN..." but it doesn't mean i'd stay single for years..lol its just that im MORE careful with my heart and their hearts this time...awg..im such a good gurl..lol xD

i actually missed this...typing/telling/sharing my thought thru my blog..but oh well...back to the topic..

i'm crushing on some peeps...but lets face the fact...hanggang crush lng...asa ka pa(talking to myself) lol

they say we should be PROUD of being single...in-a-way..YEA....but another in-a-way..NAH..

i'm actually fed up being single..no no no..lets change that...lol..I MISS taking care of someONE special...telling him the do's and don'ts lol..(motheR??) hahah xD oh well..i guess thats how i love..but theres more to explore. Leos are simply mapagmahal...

im just waiting...after graduation...i'll probably be ready to have someONE again..

someone to take care of...

someone to be with...

someone to share personal thoughts with..

someone..

someone to love and own..

=')

xoxo,

Lee

watta !@#

2008-10-21T16:58:00.002-07:00

You guys would notice that i haven't posted anything in my blog for the month of October (lolx) I was actually planning to post my grades for the 1st Quarter but i wasn't able to It's because i've been busy for a couple of days doing projects...and still im not yet DONE! grrr..~_~" but i'ts ok..I'll pass it after our exams which will start on thursday (oct23) which is tomorrow...that's till Saturday...4 subjects on the 2nd day...argg! Pray for me...xD

I'm able to type this because I'm in our school's computer Lab. And we're having our oral recitation and I'm not yet called (naku sana alam ko sagot sa tanong na mabubunot ko...)

I miss visiting my thread and other threads in Egames...I only attack in Egames thread these days..i seldom post for i might get tempted..and instead of doing my projects--i'd stay posting in threads...(just to avoid temptations..lol) xD

Probably..by next week, i'd be free to roam round the Egames thread..but first i'd chill and relax in some place......just to cool myself down..aun...mis u guys!

xoxo,
Lee

^_^

sept.24

2008-09-23T18:13:00.000-07:00

Another day...another new beginning..^_^

I'm in our school's computer lab now..and I'm done with our seat work with programs...my eyes hurt already! arrgghhh...oh well...after a few minutes we'll be going back to class and have our Physics "LONG" quiz, then English Quiz and Math. Too many quizzes today...so tiring..

I slept at 12:15am yesterday and woke at 5:30--then got ready for school!
oh wait...our teacher's already here...see yah guys later!!!

^___^

till next post!!

-Lee

goodluck sa quizzes namin..............wew..dami dami xD

Godbless!

21--Sunday!!!

2008-09-21T07:48:00.001-07:00

Too many things happened today…I just got my new haircut!! Nothing changed big tym! My bangs just got shorter! Lol…oh well…after the hairspa and haircut stuff, I got hungry and decided to eat at Karate Kid---I haven’t tried eating there…so I just went there! Lol I ordered their chicken teriyaki and the dessert…strawberry jam mousse…aw gawd..i loved the dessert…arggg!! Its like im craving for it..NOW..haha xD

I got home kinda late already…Im actually typing and I haven’t change my clothes yet! Oh well..that’s it for now…too many busy people….~_~”

Oh yea..before I leave and post another entry tomorrow, I accidently bit my lip…as in SUPER BITE TLGA!! Arg…super dugo sya kanina…arrgg!!! It still hurts…T_T

Till nxt post!!
-Lee

this is for Dee ^^

2008-09-20T07:08:00.000-07:00

Mr. Christian O. Dy

wish you all the best dee! ^_^
dito lng ako if you need me..
wish i was there! lol..but enyweiz..
Hope ur wishes wud come true!
and do avoid eating burgers for lunch..lol

TAKE CRE!!!

luv ya!

GODBLESS!

=Lee=

CONGRATULATIONS IV HUMILITY!!!

2008-09-20T06:50:00.000-07:00

All the pain we felt as we go for practices…THEY’RE ALL WORTH IT!!!!
We’ve prove that star sections are not only mentally retarded/nerdy (lol)
But active as well in the non academic competitions!!!

GUDLUCK SATIN SA MALOLOS!

St.Mary's College of Meycauayan Intramurals 08-09

2008-09-20T06:40:00.000-07:00

(September 17 ~ September 19)

Hi there guys! A formal intro of myself here!

Name: Loralie "Lira/Lee" Sevilla
Department: Highschool
Section: IV Humility
Adviser: Ms. Noemi Salonga
Ranks/Groups: Class PRO, 4th yr epresentative of Computer Club, Cdt./Sgt.

Congratulations to those sections who won and brought their banners up high!

The real story of every game lies within the player himself/herself. If ever there was any cheating that happened--it's only them who could confirm it. Let's admit guys..may dayaan---but the game's over! Congratx nalang din sa tinanggap ang pagkatalo nila and a big round of applause to those who won the championship.---it was a friendly competion after all..right?

JOB WELL DONE co-MARiANS!

"Championship/Finals" Winners: (1st place only)

Cheerdance Competion (3rd-4th yr) : IV Humility
KasayawKa :
Best annotator in KasayawKa : Terica Buenaobra (IV Humility)
Street Dance (1st-2nd yr)
Volleyball girls : IV Charity
Volleyball boys: IV Sincerity
Basketball : IV Charity
Table Tennis : Arem Talusan [IV Modesty/boys] Jacquelyn Javellana [IV Humility/girls]
Poster Making : IV Unity
Chess : Arem Talusan [IV Modesty/boys] Stefanie Javier [IV Humility/girls]
Singing Contest : solo=Emman Vailno [IV Unity] duet=Emman Valino w/ Mary Joy Roxas [IV Unity]

boring...

2008-09-10T17:17:00.000-07:00

September 11 2008, Thursday.

what a day to start with..

I slept at like 1am...woke up at 4:45am..ate..took a bath..dressed up..went to school
and here i am...here WE are..lol doing a seatwork we don't know how to start or do it..haha

So our peer teacher, asked to make a love note to our dear computer teacher.

So here WE are again..just surfing the net...Friendster,,lol xD

erhmmm..i dunno what to say....how i am feeling right now is...i dunno..im clueless haha!
im OK..happy nmn ako...QUITE! ^^

calling on all Audistas!

2008-08-29T06:50:00.000-07:00

Hi eGamers! Are u so called a "mamaw" at the dancefloor AUDITION BATTLE DANCE OL?

Want to have a family where you can almost talk about anything?

If your a girl..want to be unique? (a club where there's more guys than girls!)

Here's bC1 (Bionix Club Uno)

a sister clan/club of Baguio Clan Uno---World's #1 WAR ROCK TEAM

biOnix Club Uno is a club where good/talented audistas are grouped together!

its not only the skills we're talking about here...personality, attitude towards other players and discipline is also necessary!

It is named

biOnix--which means strong, great skills

Club---we're ONE--a Family!

Uno---#1

Come and join our Group!

Just send us your application here at our Friendster account

bc1_audition@yahoo.com

(NOTE: applicants--changing of iGn into bC1 is required!)

If you just simply want to be a family member in AUDITION

just search our family name

biOnixClub-1

(exact spelling and form of letters is required)

and apply!

GET MAMAWFIED!

"Where Legends are Born."

NCAE

2008-08-27T04:39:00.000-07:00

the National Career Assestment something lol..so called as the NCAE! was done a while ago....it was easy..good thing i didn't sleep late in rviewing notes! haha xD wat u need was stored knowledge! luckily...i have mine..haha! xD

hows lyf?! oh well...getting bored... im just trying to enjoi my life.. even though there are corners that ar already crumpled...the only thing that cud straighten/flatten them is......oh well

next topic =') like i said..the NCAE was easy! ^^
In our 1st Quarter periodical examinations...fortunately i didnt get any failing grades!! ^_^ THANK GOD! ^^

sunday..

2008-08-25T01:35:00.000-07:00

yesterday, i went to church..on my way i was wearing a sad face..i had no expression at all...due to being single AGAIN...and pain it caused me...

When i got there..It was praise and worship time..(im a born again christian)
the lyrics really hit me bullseye...i felt how much i needed God's strength in me...since im too weak aleady...and like my mentor friend said..im becoming vulnerable...

Yesterday nyt..a friend called me, he asked if he cn court me. I refused..and prankly told him "sorry..im not ready yet. I still love him". That time I knew i hurt his feelings...but he got nothing to do. He just respected my decision and said he would wait.....

I actually don't know if i'm being selfish...Out of all the guys who're willing to take cre of me...I chose HIM---the guy who didnt appreciate the effort i exerted in our relationship just to NOT make things complicated..

Im being too emotional i know. Yet i don't know if all hopes for me are GONE.

im simply.................broken
smiling due to pain
hyper due to loneliness

right now..
What you see in me..what expression/feelings you see in me.....are all lies

T_T

wake up..by coheed and cambria

2008-08-19T07:53:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna ride this plane out of your life again
I wish that I could stay, but you argue
More than this I wish, you could've seen my face
In backseats staring out, the window

I'll do anything for you
Kill anyone for you

So leave yourself intact
'Cause I will be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips
I love you

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up

I've earned through hope and faith
On the curves around your face
That I'm the one you'll hold forever
If morning never comes for either one of us
Then this I pray to you wherever

I'll do anything for you
This story is for you
('Cause I'd do anything you want me to for you)
I'll do anything for you
Kill anyone for you

So leave yourself intact
'Cause I won't be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips
I loved you

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
'Til you decide to wake up

unexplainable

2008-08-16T01:29:00.000-07:00

if your going to ask me how and what im feeling right now..i couldnt explain anything...all i could say is...i want to love, and i wanna be loved. ='(

simple as that.

bad day

2008-08-14T14:31:00.000-07:00

my sister (eldest) cam back here in the phil. from dubai..just for a vacation. She bought me BROWN lenses..instead of blue...T_T which is sooo not good...(brown won't look good on me) huhuhhu!! What would I do??!

But anyways..anothing thing, It's pur exam WEEK! and all our projects have the same DEADLINE! huhuhu why do teachers do that often...make their students submit ALL of it in just one day...

Enyweiz..i have my pc back..^^ back..im just hoping it wont a cathvirus ulit..T_T huhuhu!mhhrapan nnmn ako T_T aun...im downloading all the stuff i need..specially AUDITION...15 patches to go...xDDD wew~~~

bad day

2008-07-30T18:09:00.000-07:00

I got home from our project making in Terica's house at 11pm..so late..arrgghh so i had no energy left at all..May pasok pa bukas!! nakooo nmn!! xD

Morning came...i woke up..my mum nagged me about fixing some celphone prob thingy (info: i finishd training as cellphone tech. JUST for FUn xD) I told my mum not to let me think of stuff that i shouldnt focus on!! i dont want to forget anything that ive learned and studied the day before!! ..eventually..she got mad at me...so OK..i just went out and went off to go to school...it rained...the tricycle i was in had a flat wheel....after he pumped some air in, we almost totally super crashed at another tricycle..the driver turned right immediately and we kinda got stock in a huge hole....and fyi guys...before we got ourselves shooT in that freakin hole..i screamed like hell...who's not going to freak out when u are at the stake of DYING!?!?! x_x

that was just soooooooo pathetic!! it freakin freaked me awt like hell! after that incident, i just kept quiet..and suddenly tears fell down my cheeks...*sigh* "Thank God I'm still alive..." i whispered to myself. Maybe i was just too stressed to cheer up and think positive..

Who would dare to have such a morning? what if we totally crashed to that vehicle....i wont be able to celebrate my 17th birthday....='(

what if...

2008-07-26T03:39:00.000-07:00

What if you're missing someone? someone who's near..yet hard to reach? What are you suppose to do? Just sit and think of that person? Do something to reach that person and take the risk? Or just accpet the fact that person's GONE?

Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible
because u think that he/she doesn't miss u?

Missing someone is a terrible
but at the same time, sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering
if u meant anything to him/her.

Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.
Rushing to the phone once it rings
hoping that it's him/her.
Looking out of the window
hoping that he/she will surprise u
by appearing downstairs.

Sitting in front of the television
but thinking of him, missing the
final episode of your favourite show.
Laying on your bed,
thinking of the last time u were out together.

Thinking of how nice it will be
to sit under the stars again,
talking about everything,
your dreams, plans, future.

Logging on to the internet
hoping to see him/her online.
When u realise that he/she isn't online
and did not return your page,
u will start worrying if he/she is okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely
and let u know that there is actually a feeling
known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and
u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her.

But missing someone and not knowing
if he/she is feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell that person and
let them know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone become
jealousy or paranoia.

If u are the one being missed and u know it,
let the other party know, that's if you only
miss that person too! Telling someone you miss her/him
when you know that he/she DOESN'T is kinda embarassing
and deimnnn...that hurts!!!

UST~~Humanae Vitae

2008-07-25T19:42:00.000-07:00

Saint Mary's was invited in the event the 4oth yr of Humanae Vitae and I was one of the representatives of St.Mary's. I was kinda excited coz i'm graduating na and this is once in a lifetime experience to be in a rally. haha! xD

When we got there, other schools were also present. PRO-LIFE peEpx, etc. It was soooo damnnn HOT!!! grrr...that really pissed us off but after sometime the wind became really generous. haha! It rained at about 4pm and it was funny when people did the SUN DANCE haha! xD i was shy and i found it quite wierd..so I just sat on the grassy field of UST under my friend's green umbrella. Time passed...about 5pm my 4 classmates (girls only) and I got so freakin' BORED!!! Our school's designer and media thingy (kuya Bong) toured us in UST..wahaha! it was so fun..we took pictures in every interesting spot! I'll be uploading it this week NO WORRIES!! haha!

There's this guy who greeted us "HI MARIANS" (Ateneo:atenista ; St.Mary's:Marians) but he was only looking at me and smiling..^__________^! haha shocking..he was realllllly cute!!!! xD i doubted to say hi...but eventually i did..xD After sometime i saw him again! hahaha! (what an adventure) infairness it was fun hanging out without the sisters(nuns) seeing us and get caught in the act...haha

if that happened yesterday...most probably we'll end up in the Disciplinary Office haha!

I got home at about 9:30pm...i was really tired, so i just cleaned myself up and went to bed. oh and by the way..did u see us in TV PATROL, BANDILA and GMA? haha! we were the ones wearing a BLUE JUMPER! from St.Mary's College of Meycauayan City Bulacan!!! haha xD

Till next post..!!
*bOw*

weEeEee~~

2008-07-23T17:35:00.000-07:00

ONCE AGAIN..

2008-07-22T17:50:00.001-07:00

Can i say IM BACK? haha! sorry guys i didnt post much these days...got too busy with school work..(graduating na ehh..YAY!! xD) So many things happend..SHOCKING..xD erhhmm..i'm still single..for 2 months already!! haha! XD weEeEeee~~ still waiting for the right one.."Lee's man.." haha! xD Enyweiz yea...there are some peEpx courting..but let's just say I just make sure that I won't cry (and cry and cry...and so on..) and making sure he's the one i'll be with for years...haha!
i missed posting in my blog...T_T even my viewers!! ^^

WHAT'S NEW?
..uhmm i often sleep LATE coz of playign audition online and doing homeworks, studying, ETC.!!!...which freaks me out when i take a bath early in the morning (the water's deimnnnn cold!!! brRrRrrrrr) huhu! And yesterday...aun..i slipped sa stairs sa school malapit sa C.R..T_T sakit ng leg ko may pasa...wuhuhu!! im so iztufiid en clumsy..amF

MILITARY STUFF
ohh yea...since i'm a 4th year HS student..we're having our CAT. I applied for the Military Police for girls...simply because i don't want to be handled by some platoon leaders who got some issues with me regarding..."!@#$" CLUE: an abstract---feelings! xD

--CDT./SGT./SEVILLA, LORALIE, B.--------- reporting for duty ma'am!! xD

---request to fall out...haha XD

ACTUALLY..
I'm here sa schol ngayon..i got nothing to do kase..friendster and forums here are not ALLOWED to beviewed by students..GRRRR..xD So till here...I PROMISE TO POST AND UPDATE (regarding my insights and what's new) WHEN I'M NOT BUSY.. haha

love u guys!!
---till next post!!

2008-06-24T17:09:00.000-07:00

IM BACK..xD

2008-06-24T17:00:00.000-07:00

After a LOOOOOOOOOOOONG time spending and wasting my money in net cafes...my PC's back! as well as my internet! ^^ So I'll be posting again often! Watch out for my soon to come entries.. I'll be back on track and will be opening my friendster everyday (hopefully..if im not busy with school work) xD

aun....i miss you guys....till next post!

-Lee
single...happy...yet there's still something....missing T_T

Lee's new quote/motto [[just sharing...=) ]]
"1 is enough...2 is too much....3 is toxic."

in a BAD mood..

2008-05-21T23:08:00.000-07:00

its not that im single!!! its ok with me to chill!! more space..more fun!! but my freakin' internet connection is sooooooooooooooooooooo slooooooooOOOooOoooOooOoOoooWWWwwwwww.. can u imagine how slow it is? it's like a baby turtle...forcing itself to run!!!! O_o

gRrRrrr....damn smart bro..enyways!! I'm playing the guitar a while ago..half of my body got stuck in my cabinet [[where my xtra stuff are kept]] coz i was just looking for my songhits...and yet...I COULDNT FIND 'EM!!! [[not a single one..]] grrrr..good thing i could still type and post entries in my blog..WHEW!! atleast...

Moving on...I'm so into being loud over the net these days.. I like staying in the lobby [[AUDITION PH]] and get loud... xD i like listening to songs these days [[any genre]] i'm into lying on my bed and text my friends.. what's with me? lolx I wanna chill out...im currently dreaming on having a vacation in an island...where there is only ME...and my teddy..[[wtH?]] my friends i mean...xD

IM SO INTO GETTING HYPER!!! grrr...i don't like it...i can't control stuff that i'm going to say...it's like i don't care at all ..but i really do..WTH?! ohhhh...i'll rest for a while..i think im getting paranoid...TILL MY NEXT POST!!!

[[have to go find some yogurt...it might cool me down a bit]] xD

it's freakin' HOT!!!! giv my net back!! *irritated* X_X

my song?...x_x

2008-05-20T22:05:00.000-07:00

It Ends Tonight.

(by The All-American Rejects)

Your subtleties

They strangle me

I can’t explain myself at all.

And all that wants

And all that needs

All I don’t want to need at all.

The walls start breathing

My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,

It ends tonight

It ends tonight.

A falling star

Least I fall alone.

I can’t explain what you can’t explain.

Your finding things that you didn’t know

I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing

My minds unweaving

Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

[Chorus]

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight will make this right

It’s too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Now I’m on my own side

It’s better than being on your side

It’s my fault when your blind

It’s better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside

Now you’re the first to know.

"i don't want to say goodbye..

but i think you're the one who's leaving...T_T

i won't force you...nor convince you

just remember...i still care.....T_T"

x...Thank you for the memories...x

xoxo, Lee

2008-05-18T18:58:00.000-07:00

According to Eddie Corbano
(reff: http://www.longdistancerelationships.com/10_Rules.asp)

10 RULES TO MAKE LDR's WORK xD

1. Have A Relationship Plan For The Future
~Know where you are heading. Have a light at the end of the tunnel.

What do you want to accomplish in you partnership? Have goals and a time frame when you want to be together. It is very important that you both have a hope to live for. I think that this is the most common reason why some long distance relationships don’t work: they don’t have a plan, they just hope it will turn out right, that a miracle is going to happen. Certainly this also means you have to make sacrifices. At least one of you.

Realize that you most likely only have three options: she moves to him, he moves to her or both move to another place. Start talking about it as soon as you realize that you want to be together. The biggest mistake you can make is to hush it up

2. Meet Regularly
~Try to see each other every month at least once. Plan this ahead and make it a celebration, an explosion, something very special! Soon this short meetings will be something you long for, something that you will align your life at. Remember, you only get a real connection by touching, feeling and smelling a person. You don’t get scent with email or skype, or that initial wow you feel inside when you see your love. So do everything you can to meet at least once a month or so.

3. Use Modern Technologies To Communicate
~You need all the help you can get, so why not using the glorious benefits of a modern communication world. Using all this electronic stuff will make it much easier for you both. Imagine how it used to be 100 years ago, when a letter used to take months.

4. Give Yourselves A Free Day
~I found it very helpful to insert a day or two without any communication. What then happens is that you miss each other very intensively and you usually find yourselves at a more higher level than you were before. If the only way of interaction between you is canceled for a day or two, you will either progress or doubt. In any case you will know where you stand. This is also a good way to test your long distance relationship. [[parang ang hirap ata nito..haha!]]

5. Write Extensive And Intimate E-mails
~Open yourself up completely. Write about your inner state, what you are feeling, what you dream about, what you hope for. As a rule of guidance: describe in your e-mails your inner state and in your phone-calls your outer state. Writing is more intense than verbal communication and allows you to be more intimate. That will create a tighter bond between you. The most important thing here is: be honest! Don’t pretend you are someone you are not. Don’t put yourself in a better light. Long distance relationships only have a chance if both are completely honest and congruent.

6. Send A Written Letter Once In A While
~Do not underestimate the marvelous feeling, when you look in your letter box and find a letter from your love, open it and see his/her writing. This is a pleasure we often forget about in this modern times. Not to mention that it’s far more romantic.

7. Beware Of Jealousy
~Jealousy is a very dangerous thing and can threaten every long distance relationship. Jealousy is commonly a lack of trust and understanding. It very often reveals insecurities and bad experiences in other relationships.

The keyword here is simply: trust. You cannot control and observe your partner, you only can have faith in your relationship and in the things you build together in the times you had. Hold on to that and never give in to that green eyed monster.

Jealousy is one of the most negative and destructive emotions there is! Listen to Shakespeare:

O, beware, my lord, of jealousy

It is the green-eyed monster which doth mock

The meat it feeds on; that cuckold lives in bliss

Who, certain of his fate, loves not his wronger

But, O, what damned minutes tells he o’er

Who dotes, yet doubts, suspects, yet strongly loves!

8. Avoid Dangerous “Situations”
~Trust is essential. If you completely trust your partner and also have faith in your relationship, you can pretty much do what you want without endangering your relation. However, I nevertheless recommend avoiding some specific situations. Of course it depends on the person, but I would not date the opposite sex alone, or go to wild parties. Simply avoid temptations that could distract you from each other.

Better safe than sorry!

9. Never Loose Faith
~Watch out, you will meet a lot of skepticism. People will tell you that long distance relationships never work, especially those who have had negative experiences about it. Don’t listen to them. People tend to negate things they failed on.
Listen to me: it can definitely work, but you both have to believe it.

10. Always Stay Positive
~Always assume that your partner loves you and cares about you. Never assume anything negative, whether you read something in his/her e-mails or you disliked how he/she made a weird comment on something. Don’t interpret to much in it.

The problem with non-face-to-face communication is the lack of facial expression. It is so easy to misinterpret but unfortunately much harder to trust and stay positive.
I assure you, if something was wrong, you will know it.

As you can see, I’m definitely positive about long distance relationships. They expose ongoing life lessons, and prove that love, loyalty, and faith are the vital ingredients to a lasting relationship.

a Long DISTANCE Realationship

2008-05-18T17:38:00.000-07:00

Are you in this kind of relationship?! Most people must have found this really stupid and effortless. But for me, if you really love that person..you'll do anything to have and keep that person's love. Love isn't just NEAR or just BESIDE you...it can be found anywhere, even in the corners of a dark room [[wat?should it be really dark?]] haha! xD

Anyways, seriously I DON'T BELIEVE IN LDR's! [[that was before..]] until I met this guy..well, actually he was a friend of mine for quite a long time (I've been staying here in the philippines for 3 years..maybe we've known via an online game for almost about..i don't know..more than a year?) So ayun, Our connection via net was lost i don't know how and why, but because of my friend which i just met this year I get to meet him again [[not eye to eye though]] but it was weird..He used to call me "crush" and when we found each other's end point, he still called me that! He courted me..sent me some stuff [[stuff that would impress a girl i guess..]] all the way from cebu. That really amuzed me..NO ONE...has ever did much effort for me.

On the other side of the story, while he was courting me..there's this other guy who I've fallen in love with already but we ain't committed...This guy which is IN cebu right now, i don't know what's gotten into me that I keep missing him..(IF YOU R THINKING...well it's DEFINITELY not because of the sweet stuff he sent me! I admit im maluho kind of girl but i'm not used to asking other people to buy me stuff! SO DON'T THINK THAT WAY!!! amp)

Eventually..I fell inlove with this cebu guy (E.J) X_X At first..I didn't know what to do..T_T coz i don't know if i could handle such relationship...T_T But i tell you...*AHEM* publicly speaking, I'm loving this guy MORE than i ever loved any guy!!!! [[wheeeeeeeewww]] TAKE NOTE: LONG DISTANCE...He's now my boyfriend...[[O_o wahahah! =p]]

Why am I loving him so much? [[it's because he's taking care of me..]] how..i don't know ...there's just this feeling..that..as if he's so close to me....weird but a happy feeling, it's not just you're inlove!! you're in love with a great guy! i mean...it's just this freakin' distance! And how are we surviving? It's because both of us [[SPECIALLY ME!!!]] believe that the time will come, we don't have to worry how far we are and how much distance there is that's keeping us away from each other.. He's got 3 years more to finish college...5 years for me.. That won't be too hard i guess..i mean..come on...ur loving for real, you don't mind to sacrifice..right?

Right now..what i wish for..is something to hold on for eternity...our TRUST, LOYALTY, LOVE, PATIENCE...and most specially...STRENGTH to hold on to this kind of relationship and HOPE for letting our paths meet in the future---the right time.

whats happening to Lee O_o

2008-05-18T00:58:00.000-07:00

Last night..I was playing AUDITION ONLINE when my tummy hurt so bad i was almost lying on my keyboard X_X [[weird ehh..]] I dunno... My mum brought me to the hospital near our place, i couldn't walk..nor breathe properly. I was taken to the ER with a wheelchair [[wtH?]] haha! i found it funny...i dunno y..maybe because i never sat on a wheelchair before..haha! XD

The doctor said I lack water, Sleep, etc. i had a low b.p xD While i was lying on one of the beds there, i was txting my bes, and my baby, even though those imp. people in my life aren't there physically..i could feel them..i dont know..its weird..but a great feeling, coz u dont feel that much distance thats keeping you away from them.

Right now, i'm still drinking this 30cc syrup and some powder..i dont knw wat..di na masakit sikmura ko..puson ko nlng xD I try to avoid giggling..coz i feel pain..still. But im way better now than last night.

aun...after 2 days or so..i must be so well..i've got meeting to attend to on tuesday with my 3rd yr classmates xD

Till next post!
I'd still be posting even if i'm not well
i simply love sharing what i have in mind...and in my heart as well..^^

MOVIE : The Holiday [[LOVE!!!]]

2008-05-16T01:03:00.000-07:00

Last night, my couz asked me to watch a movie w/her, since we both had nothing to do, we watched this movie called "The Holiday" [[dvd dvd dvd! xD]] it was all about LOVE!!!. The Phrase i remembered when the movie was about to start was

"Love is BLIND...according to Shakespeare"

[[I didn't know that quote was from Shakespeare!!]] cool eh?

2 heartbroken ladies exchanged homes for 2 weeks [[xmas holidays]] and so on and so forth [[I'm not giving detail about the rest..just WATCH it..its a gr8 movie really..]]

Arthur (the old man) there said to the heartbroken woman (it goes like..)

"In every movie, there's the leading lady, leading man and the leading man's bestfriend...In your life itself, you should act like the leading lady!! according to your story, you are acting like the bestfriend!"

.:x MY VIEW x:.

Unfortunately..sometimes, people tend to forget that the conclusions of every situation in our lives depend on what our decisions are and what we do. We usually lose our pride when we get hurt and forget that we are the leading person in our own movie...

And to end our movie with a happy ending...Remember;

>Share

>Think (consequences of your actions)

>Act (prove something)

>Love

>LEAD

P.S > S.T.A.L.L has nothing to do with our MOVIE! haha! xD

BE INSPIRED!!!!!!!!

Till my next posT!

xoxo,

Lee

HAPPY MOTHER'x DAY!!!

2008-05-11T05:51:00.000-07:00

happy mum's day to your mum!!!

I've been a bad gurl today...i slept at 3.30am and woke up at 10.30am? Eventually my mum got mad 'coz she didn't get to go to CHurch ...COZ OF MEEEE!!!!! T_T wasn't that mean..huhu! I really felt guilty! So i thought of giving her a surprise/gift! Since i only got P500 with me, i thought of giving my mum a cake..with a letter of course. (the letter is shown below..pls don't laugh) xD

Oh come on..Its not bad to be sweet once in a while..xD but what i wrote in that letter is true..and sincere! (ehemm..) ^_^ So ayun..Continuing the story, I planned to go to church NYTtym and unfortunately SHE WAS COMING WITH ME .,..haha! so what i did, while she was taking a bath...i went straight off to Merced's and left her! hahahah! xD [[that was close]] So i left the cake at the counters/the baggage place thing..i got the number 40. My mum and I met in the church itself..she was like "kung san san ka pa pumupunta.." haha! I was in SILENT mode...i didnt talk much. After the service, I gave her the number 40 and said "mami..pagod nako..kaw na kumuha.." I acted as if i was sooo exhausted haha! She smiled..and said "naku..tamad ka tlg.." hahahaha! OMG tlg..poop!

She was..syempre...surprised, cake nakuha nya dun sa counter and when she turned back, i said "happy mother's day..sorry medyo late na.." hahaha! gabi na kase ehh, but still...cakes are for desserts and so we ate it when we got home..right now im still full and i can still taste the mocha flavor..TOINKX! hahaha! BATI NA KAMI!!!! xD

THE END! [[ohhh how sweet of me..xD]] haha!

So guys..that's it for today's story! lolx

TILL NXT POST!! love y'all!

GAMERS awt deRr

2008-05-10T12:56:00.001-07:00

if you pipol are really on the groove to hit those arrow keys and show off your latest and fave move...then probably..ur an audistah just like me!!!! xD

Audition is an online game..not only to have fun and be challenged..but to have new friends as well! It's worldwide and we have our very own AUDITION here in the philippines by e-games. Try it..and if ur in it...then see you at the dancefloor....

bC1-coldF- hir..a certified member of bC1 add our official site via friendster

Friendster

bc1_audition@yahoo.com

http://profiles.friendster.com/bc1audition

and try to visit our FORUM

http://forums.e-games.com.ph/index.php?topic=463930.0

take care guys...HAVE FUN!!! ^____^

.:x FEATURE friend of the Day x:.

2008-05-07T05:27:00.000-07:00

Guys! Here's my feature friend of the day!

Let's start off with Mr.Kriz Lopez aka SIOMAI! (y? i dunno..xD), his proffesion sticks to being a call center agent (so he probably speaks good english..xD) He's 21 years old and lives/stays in Pampanga PH.

So how did we meet? In audition PH, it was long time ago..i was still a FREEDOM that time..xD We started calling mew when he finds me a "memew' while he's "halimew" at the dancefloor..(WHEW!) siOMai's simply a great guy..who loves to love, loves burgers, loves to joke around and loves to drink..xD

What else? he's a great friend...the reason why he's my feature friend of the day is because he's my most active friend..lolx We love to talk and share stories even the darkest secret we havE! [[haha!!]]..xD There's never a dull moment when you're with him or just by having a chat w/him...coz he's simply CRAZY!!!!!! [[peace!]] ^_^ if you wanna know him more..check/add him in FS!

http://profiles.friendster.com/15116925

TILL MY NEXT POST!!! [[chaO!]] ^^

yay!!!

2008-05-06T05:12:00.000-07:00

Guys...my pc is already done! ayus na!! ^_^ weeeeee....i'll get to post my entries na... so ayun...eto muna...i'm currently downloading stuff like ym, i mesh, audition, ETC ETC! after this..i'll be posting daily here in my blog! so just keep visiting for updates!

misssssssssED YOU! ^^

Once again..

2008-04-22T04:15:00.000-07:00

I'm done with the HACKING ISSUE...I actually don't care anymore!! Besides..why would I get bothered..they're just using my pictures...and i still have myself with me!!! hahaha! xD

So starting all over again..BACK TO ZERO..huhu! I made a new fs account..If you wanna add me..MAKE ME!!!!! xD lolx...kidding.. [[if the hacker or poser is reading this now..BLESS U !@#$]] (mkkarma ka din kala mO...wakokoko!!)

oh well..HAPPY HAPPY!!! ^___^

GUYX..watch out for my upcoming posts...I'm PLANNING to feature my close friends on earth here in my BLOG!..lolx xD Just for you guys to be aware.....that besides having POSERS and HACKERS in this world..there are still some people who really cares and will never leave your side!! awww...*puppy eyes* lolx..

so till my next post..

GB!!!^^.v

IM HACKED

2008-04-21T00:34:00.000-07:00

GUYS...ATTENTION HERE PLEASE..

FOR ALL FRIENDSTER USERS THERE..IM NOT THE ONE USING ALL MY OFFICIAL ACCOUNTS....IM HACKED...ALL MY ACCOUNTS ARE TAKEN FROM THAT FREAKIN' POSER OR I DONT KNOW WHO!

these are the links that you might think that's ME!!!!
well...TOO BAD...it's not me..they're called POSERS ^^

1. http://profiles.friendster.com/67007005
2. http://profiles.friendster.com/63296997
3. my first fs account http://www.friendster.com/coldfuxion
4. my 2nD fs account http://www.friendster.com/coldfuxion2
5. my 3rD fs account http://www.friendster.com/coldfuxion3

NOTICE that even my OFFICIAL accounts are taken...

The reason why...I HAVE NO FREAKIN' IDEA..

SO JUST A REMINDER GUYS...If you wanna be my friend in my friend's list at FS..Better know me first....i don't want POSERS and HACKERS hangin' around...so..

MESSAGE TO THAT HACKER/TRYING HARD PIPOL

ENJOI HAVING MY PICTURES....haha!
I'M STILL ME

THE ONLY ONE

2008-04-17T13:03:00.001-07:00

I had been true to him all this time
But our relationship didn't work out fine
He promised me he'll stay
But now all I can do is pray.

He already found someone
But I chose to find no one
Lots of love comes again, but my heart refuses
I dont't need those trashes.

All I'm longing for is my boo
I don't need a three or two
Even though he chose another one over me
To be his girl is all I wanted to be.

False promises were made for me
To put me in pain and insanity
I believe he's my destiny
I thought what had happened was serendipity.

no connection

2008-04-16T20:01:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i called smart bro for like 3x? But infairness to the agents there..they're like so friendly (duh?) pwahaha!

enyweiz..i didnt get to go oNLine in audition PH which resulted ME in SLEEPING EARLY..amF! and mah bad...when i woke up..i got this !@#$ called SORE-EYES!! huhuhuhu! but its not that bad..coz i hav 'em in both eyes..xD

Hey YOU! I MISS YOU! ^_^

yesterday..*ubo ubo ubo* i was in my CAM mode...meaning pipol get to see me via webcams (huwatt?) yea..lolx xD but my DARN PC ..you red ryt! darn it..its hangin'!!!! i'm planning to format this thingy coz i think its full of virus or sumting...xD

good thing i get to post a new one in my blog...just to share what i've experienced yesterday...xD

So wat's with the picture? (wala lng..trip ko lng) hahaha! its me..my nose in nose pack! pwahahah! i did that after a looooong bath..weee!

till nxt posT!!!

Lee is missing you...xD

REPORT CARD DAY

2008-04-14T22:05:00.000-07:00

I just finished my 3RD YEAR highskool...and i got my grades yesterday..shocking...

SECTION : III -Sincerity..MIB building..LOLX ahahahaha!

ADVISER : Mr.Michael Botis [[rock on]] xD

NOTE : General ave

Fil ------------- 88.50

Eng ------------89.25

Math ---------- 90.50

Sci ------------ 85.00 [[i don't like chemistry]] ='(

Makabayan --- 93.00

AP ------------ 92.00

TLE ---------- 93.50

MAPEH ------- 91.50

CL/Bible ------ 95.25 [[cool eh?haha!]]

RHGP -------- 93.75

Club Inv. ----- 92.00

GEN.AVE. ----- 90.22

bwahaha! o yea...success...^_^

bbye third year..

HELLO SENIORS!! xD pwahehe..xD

Lee is the happiest EMO xD

2008-04-14T22:00:00.000-07:00

ok..so hows life?

i simply decided to be active to my youth fellas and i didnt open my friendster account for 2-3days i think..it's all part of the MOVING ON thing..lolx

so that's the way it is..as of now.....i love my friends..new friends...and more friends ,,i dont care if they're faaaR away from me..besides i can feel their freakin presence..lolx...in the future..we'll all trip and hang out together....eventually..^_^

the initials i bladed out on my wrist is not yet healed...but mentally i am..and im so damn happy...hu cares..not all emo's are depress..so live with it! lolx

so ayun....wala lng...masaya...^__^ update ko kau palgue!!

mission..ACCOMPLISHED!!

2008-04-14T21:39:00.000-07:00

oyea...guess what guys...IM ME AGAIN..hahaha!

for your info guys...i've moved on already...and it feeels GREAT!!!

pwahaha! whew! love it!

enyweiz..i'm starting a new life again..

THANKS to my friends..who were there..ALWAYS!

to siOmai, apOi, kuROro, maRK, ely, jim, alynjel and other peeps including my bes..

thank you... =') to my bC1 family..EHEM! ubo ubo ubo..xD

bsta..thank you guys..

special thanks to the Lord..

i've surrenderd ALL THE HURT, PAIN, BLADE, and other bloody stuff..

lol...

ok..so enuf with the thank you..

i just feel so damn great ^_^

hello new hyperactive life..lolx

bbye pain from YOU!!!!!

thank God it's FRIDAY!!!

2008-04-11T00:02:00.001-07:00

ok...moving ON...still in healing mode..xD

First of all..i appreciate you guys for viewing my blog and for caring to know the glimpse of my life..thank you ^_^ I find it really nice typing all the thoughts I have in mind..Even though sumtimes...Tears fall while i type..pwahaha!

Today..Lunch time [[i havent taken lunch yet xD]] my mum noticed me [[duh]] i was really quiet wahaha! I was making 'bantay' sa mini stor namin so ayun...she was epal nanaman sa pag move on ko when she started telling MY LOVE STORY with THIS GUY from THE BEGINNING when we met in I-MESH/bearshaRE!!! GOD! i was like "HEY MUM..you can stop now..STOOOOPP!!!" lolx...eventually i sed that while i had waterfalls agen..haix..so tired..my mum wasn't helping me at all....but she encouraged me at the end... for her it was encouragement...but for me..waAAaAaaa..... that put me down!!! [[heLL yea..]]

A while ago..i was lying on my mum's biggie bed..i felt sleepy..but somehow found it BOORRiinG!!!..i rememberd him..[[i just wish he was here...T_T]] i miss him..stupid eH?! O_o haix...I silently cried "i want him back"..and prayed "Lord..help me....I just want to be happy.." =')

Nakakapagod din pla y

ung ganito...ngayon ko lng kase naranasan ulit toh ehh...T_T

SANA MAGING MASAYA NAKOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ='c

April 10

2008-04-10T06:07:00.000-07:00

I've been sitting in front of this computer for almost 12 hours..it's making me dizzy now...lolx Anyweiz, I hope you guys are reading my long loooong stories..don't worry..they're ALL REAL!^_^

I'm still bleeding (not literally..if u knw wat i mean..) it's like i miss him...O_o
haha! I was just staring at his character while we were playing audi, my eyes...filled with tears, i didn't knw my mum saw it..and sed "You miss him eh?" Ohh God...that striked me..haha! It's like im losing all the energy i got..and then just started to giggle, or just giv a smile, so that it won't be too hard for me..

It's so stupid..crying when you don't want to
Playing online and waiting...when you're already tired of it
Dieting...for i don't know why i'm doing it!
and the stupidiest thing...
Loving....when you don't get love back.

When you think of it...It's weird why people love...and love....and LOVE...when in the end..they get HURT..and sometimes..even drown themselves to tears.

Today i got a free lunch from a friend..it was nice....it cheered me up a bit..lolx
But time passes...and there we go again.................reminiscing..xD

Lee's current lovelife..

2008-04-09T11:36:00.000-07:00

can i call it FREAKY?

lolx..hi agen...this is quite the continuation of what i posted a while ago.

For now I had 10 boyfriends..they're all serious relationships really..i LOVE alot..i guess thats the reason why i get hurt (maybe?) In that 10 guys..BELIEVE IT OR NOT..5 are long distance relationships and the other 5 are near enough..

So why am I SINGLE!?!?! lolx

It's because i'm tired of short term relationships....the longest and strongest relationship i had lasted more than a year.. and i miss that experience, i wanna break the record till the end =( I hated the way i get to have a new one when i broke up with the other..so i decided to be single..and wait/choose the guy..

"who would love me for who and what i am..who's willing to sacrifice for his/our love (to prove it)..the guy who wud be almost FOREVER with me..."

I don't care if its long distance or watever...come on! it's LOVE.. if AGE doesn't MATTER..

so does DISTANCE......it's simply NOT LETTING ANY OBSTACLES stop your love..

(this is starting to make me teary eyed)

so what the hel is with this picture?
i carved near the wrist "dC" small d capital C...
you may think it's pathetic...i do this stuff to myself when i REALLY get hurt...so far..there are 5 initials carved in my lil left hand..=( this is the last one...

This guy is very special to me... He's studying in this place not SOOO far from bulacan.. He started courting me.. i dont know when..but he did..

so there..many guys we're courting at the same time...i busted all of them...except this special guy...he may be cute..but he's not handsome..he may look kinda a bad boy type...but he's sooo kind...^_^ so there..POOF! eventually i started to fall for him...HOW WE MET was a weird but really an astig story xD

But the love story, i think ended...when (according to him) his granny didnt allow him to go to college in manila...he decided to back out from courting...and i guess from loving me too..
so here..I think he'll do everything to forget me..it really hurts ehh? he didnt want a long distance relationship..maybe he lacks TRUST in me...i dont know...it's really hard and it deeply hurtS.......................................

LOVING a person WHO WANTS TO FORGET YOU..?
After all that happend... =')

He simply wants to forget all about ME.... (oh God, here i go again..T_T)

im scared to love now...........................
.........i dont know what could heal me...haix T_T

It's hard to forget someone you really loved...and i guess...still loving..(shockx...)

Why is Lee EMO!?!?

2008-04-09T10:59:00.000-07:00

hmm..so how am i gonna start this thing?! lolx..btw..hi guyx! iM Lira...col me Lee for short..

I'm kinda eMO....yea! right...so this is how it started..I spent 14 years of my life abroad...having a complete family.yet unhappy... My dad retired and unfortunately my mum and i had to go with him.

So..TADAA!!! we arrived in the Philippines at Dec.8,2005

the time? i think 11pm..im sure it was night time..a brand new

starex van arrived just infront of our gate..uhah...and my dad was like

"hey im going to your lola's bday..so..i'd be bak.." and handed me over

a 500DIRHAMs (currency in dubai) and said "giv that to your mum"

ok ok...i was startled..i thought it was weird..y? coz he didnt

invited me!!! oh come on!! even though we're the second family of my dad

my lola really loves me!! im the favourite one..and my dad didnt freakin'

invited me!!! isnt that stooopid?

CHILL...so there..My mum and i we're waiting for him..i fell asleep olredy

and i was hoping he wud come bak...coz HELLO!! he's my dad! he shud be the one

providing us our NEEDS!!! for a month i think my mum was really upset of

how we're going to complete our day with 3 meals...[[omg..shud i even say that?]]

lol..so yea...trully it was HARD!!!!!! i hav to sacrifice too....for 2months..

i got depressed..and i stayed in my room for yea..2 months..cool eh?!

haha! sO there..in my dearest room...i began writing poems, and eventually

i found out..i was already emo.....i have this blade in my wallet which i always

check when i get hurt...

Let's say I get hurt by someONE REAAAALLLY bad..his initials are carved

in my left hand (coz im a righty)...if not in the hand, then at the lower part of

the left hand...below the wrist!! wtH...haha!

This one i made just a while ago....I COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!

oh yea...for ur info guys..its kinda blur..but for real its really glowing red, that was taken FRESH lolx! (i feel so bad...) it's "dc" why? i'll tell you...

Lee's wOrkx COPYRIGHT!!!!

2008-04-09T05:00:00.000-07:00

Guyx..chek out my sum-wat animated siggy's!!!

coOL eh?! I get paid for it...KIDDING!!! haha!
xD!!!

kEep cheking my blog if u wanna see more..^_^

urs trully,
LEE

Website which helps students learn/practice E-learning.

2007-12-29T17:43:00.000-08:00

Of all the educational sites I've seen and tried, the http://www.pootato.org/ is the tutorial site that helped me alot in my computer skills especially in my hobby which is photo editing [[specifically ADOBE which is hard to use!]].

But there are more tutorials in this site other than photoshop and html.

Each category has its feed, so you can select only the ones which interest you:
Main feed (all posts)
Tutorials feed (all tutorials posts)
Tips and tricks feed (only tips and tricks)

Tutorials subcategories:
HTML feed (all HTML tutorials)
CSS feed (all CSS tutorials)
PHP feed (all PHP tutorials)
Photoshop feed (all Photoshop tutorials)
Javascript feed (all Javascript tutorials)
How to's feed (all How to tutorials)
Miscellaneous feed (all miscellaneous tutorials)

I can prove that this site helped me!!! Here'a a picture i edited with the guide of pootato:

BEFORE:

AFTER:

So...I hope I've convinced you. To be honest, only a few people know this site and I keep it for my self, but since the topic is about learning something NEW, I shared my knowledge about it. =)

.x.o..Latest Development in the InTeRnET..o.x.

2007-11-14T05:11:00.000-08:00

Wanna know the latest development in the internet explorer?

The long expected final version of Internet Explorer 7 is now available. After the beta versions, Microsoft Corp. have released on the market a truly competitive Web browser. With enhanced security features designed to provide a high degree of security during any Web surfing experience, a newly implemented 'Windows Customer Service Experience Improvement Program' and many more useful features, Internet Explorer 7 appears to be a very good alternative to Mozilla Firefox or other browsers. All the open tabs can be displayed in thumbnail mode (Quick Tabs), the search engine section can be customized by adding or removing search providers and setting your favorite search engine as default. The help section has also been improved. The tools provide a safer browsing or online shopping: the pop-up blocker filters help you allow or block all pop-ups or pop-ups from selected Websites. You can also build a list of exceptions. The phishing filter improves your online security level: phishing filter settings can be manually changed, you can report phishing Websites or check a Website. You can now manually manage add-ons and ActiveX controls by enabling and removing them. Among other features, I must mention the 'Auto-complete' feature, accessibility options, customizable security level for browsing, content advisor, multilanguage support.

It has now enhanced security features, support for Google and Yahoo! toolbars, quick browsing experience, session restore feature, import/export wizard (this feature allows you to import and export Favorites, RSS feeds or Cookies to other applications or files which can be saved on your computer). This new version of Internet Explorer, can be set to use ClearType fonts. This kind of font improves the readability of text on LCD displays.

The new version of Internet Explorer (7) is definitely competitive with other internet browsers.

.x.o..aDvanTagEs of iNTeRneT BLoGginG..o.x.

2007-11-10T03:59:00.000-08:00

Technology is improving so fast...Don't you think? First we learned sending emails, then we had webpages, then mobile phone texting which most teenagers are addicted to nowadays...and what now? ...BLOGS! All this reflects a trend whereby the world is becoming more formal in how it communicates. Instead of body language and endless conversations, communication has shifted towards endless words on a screen.

What are the ADVANTAGES of Internet Blogging? Here are some of the advantages i found in blogging :-

1.) It can be your diary! But a public one...If you plan to suicide, just type your feelings out!!! It would be really nice if you would prefer blogging, you can improve your typing skills too than die! x_x

[[Let's get more serious guys...haha]]

2.) People you know are better informed of what you recently do.

3.) Blogs, can be an excellent way of sharing knowledge within an organization.

4.) Blogging can be a positive way of getting feedbacks, and keeping your finger on the pulse, as readers react to certain pieces, suggest ideas, give comments freely, and so on.

5.) Blogs can build the profile of the writer by reading all the blogger's pieces and stories.

6.) Other people can know what you're going through and are able to give you advices and suggestions.

and lastly...

7.) You can freely express your ideas.

However, there might be MORE advantages..For now, I find internet blogging really fun and it can serve as my public diary!

Perhaps...after our project about this...I'll improve my blogging skills. ^_^ You can freely give me comments if you wish to. GOODLUCK guys!

.x.o..PeRsOnaL pROFiLe anD picTuRE..o.x.

2007-11-08T03:41:00.000-08:00

..ME..

NAME: Loralie Buenconcejo Sevilla
NICKNAME: Lira/Lee/Rui
CHINESE NAME: Rui Li Xia Hong
NATIONALITY: Filipino/Quarter Chinese
SEX: F

BIRTHDATE: August 5, 1991 AGE: 16
BIRTHPLACE: Philippines (Bulacan)
LANGUAGES: Tagalog, English, Arabic, French
HOMETOWN: Saudi Arabia and Dubai (U.A.E)

MOTHER'S NAME: Lilia Buenconcejo (Hong) Sevilla
FATHER'S NAME: Raul Santos Sevilla

SCHOOLS ATTENDED:-
Nursery: Sesame Street [Jeddah, Saudi Arabia]
KG1: Sesame Street [Jeddah, Saudi Arabia]
KG2: Sesame Street [Jeddah, Saudi Arabia]
Prep: St.Michael [Philippines]
Grade 1: St.Mary's College of Meycauayan Bulacan [Philippines]
Grade 2: St.Mary's Catholic High School [Dubai, U.A.E]
Grade 3: St.Mary's Catholic High School [Dubai, U.A.E]
Grade 4: St.Mary's Catholic High School [Dubai, U.A.E]
Grade 5: St.Mary's Catholic High School [Dubai, U.A.E]
Grade 6: St.Mary's Catholic High School [Dubai, U.A.E]
HS 1: St.Mary's Catholic High School [Dubai, U.A.E]
HS 2: St.Mary's Catholic High School [Dubai, U.A.E] (half sem)
St.Mary's College of Meycauayan Bulacan [Philippines] (rpt. due to sudden migration)
HS 3: St.Mary's College of Meycauayan Bulacan [Philippines]

HOBBIES: Surfing the net, Photo editing, Making friends and Soundtripping.
HAD WORKED BEFORE?: Yes. A part time job in Dubai in a FUNFARE! It was fun but of course tiring! I earned alot of Dirhams [money in Dubai]

SECRETS: Ask my Mum! haha! =)
STYLE: Simply...EMO.

...WHO AM I REALLY?!?!...

I was born in the Philippines at year 1991 [[August,5]], but I was brought to Saudi Arabia at 6 months old only. I enjoyed every moment of my life when I was a kid. My parents and I stayed there for 7 years and then migrated to the United Arab Emirates for also 7 years. And now I'm back to my own land [[Philippines]] I just hope everything will be fine!!! Anyways...WHO AM I REALLY???

I'm a 16 year old girl..At my age, you wouldn't expect that I've been through many situations...especially having a broken family..but it didn't stop me from strengthening my faith in God. NOT ALL EMOS plan to end up their lives. It depends on the person if she/he really knows what she/he is doing.

Anyways, it's not only the ROCK MUSIC i adore...would you believe i love listening to Christian music? I'm a vocalist in an alternative rock Christian band. We don't get paid for our performances for WE offer the songs I sing to the Lord.

I'm a person who shows the REAL me..if I don't like you....Then live with it..It's not that im rude or whatsoever...It's just that, I CHOOSE the kind of people i get along with.

So that's it...have a nice day!!! and...GODBLESS ^_^